A Battle with the Self.

I just finished reading a comic series called “The Nightly News” by Jonathan Hickman. It was a thought provoking read that inspired through about societal norms and the generation of societal ideas and concepts mainly perpetuated by the news and government. The thing I found most interesting in it were the psychological ramifications of what was being said by the author and the main characters battle with himself and his belief system.

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Just say, “Yes”

Saying “Yes” has become a new pastime for me.  In years past I generally tend to say “No” to random activities simply because I don’t trust most people and their lack of planning ends up biting me in the ass somehow.  I’m not sure how recently but my guess is it’s been over the last year or so that I just started saying “Yes”.  Now, there are still things I say “No” to and most of them revolve around travel plans that consist of drinking in some other state.  There are certain people who will get grilled because I have been bitten in the ass by saying “Yes” to them far too often.

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Decisions, decisions….

Making a decision is often one of the most difficult things we face in our day. It is all too easy to allow those we trust to make decisions for us and just flow through life being guided by others. Life takes on whole new layers of depth when we break away from the decisions others have made for us and begin making them all our own. As part of growing up we fight tooth and nail for the right to be able to live life the way we choose dealing with the decisions we make.
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Don’t say I never gave you anything…

I was out last night and it seems my ringtone caught a few people’s ears so…. Enjoy…

Don’t Touch Me
Grab The Devil by the Horns

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Leveraging ourselves to Hell and back?

Anyone who has been following the stock market could describe the activity of late as Chaotic. If you do any historical analysis by just looking back to the beginning of the year, you will find that most stocks are down 30-50% just from the beginning of the year. In my previous article I explained how Cash will be king, even more so then it already is, as banks tighten up on loans. This gets to my point, the reason we have seen such a drastic drop in stock prices is because investors have pulled out to get cash.

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Poems

Heidi has been posting random blobs of text in twitter which I have been googling and discovering the wonderful context that these blobs originate from, I enjoy them so they should be shared.

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Fatty Acids

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Omega-3_fatty_acid

You should read this article, particularly the following sections:
Health benefits
The n?6 to n?3 ratio

It was interesting reading because I had a series of blood tests done and since I eat mostly grain feed beef and chicken like every other American I had a poor balance of Omega 6 vs Omega 3 Fatty Acids. It turns out if you aren’t eating much fish or flax or any of the items listed in this article odds are you too have a pretty huge imbalance in your Omega-6 vs Omega-3 Fatty Acids. I picks up some Omega 3 supplements and plan on balancing things a little better though I’ll probably find a nutritionist who can give me a bit more info and hopefully fine tunes things a little more.

I found it interesting and figured the people who read my ramblings may also find it interesting

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Personal Growth

Those of you who read my blog probably understand that I enjoy learning about myself and the friends I have. I like hearing about their experiences as well as sharing my own. I find that the times I feel I grow the most is when I meet someone new who has differing perspectives from my own as well as the ability to communicate those perspectives adequately. I’m sure this sounds similar to my post on Relationships and it is because we really only get to see ourselves when we are viewed through someone else’s eyes.

I find thats why I am so selective with the people I spend my time with. Few will give a valuable glimpse of me. I hate to say it but many people don’t have the communication or analytical skills I value. It may sound selfish that I pick the people I spend my time with based on what they see in me, but what the hell else should I base these things on? No one wants to wander around with a bunch of chickenheads who have nothing to say and are only interested in their next drink or score. Sure they may make you feel like some kind of god among men and allow you to do whatever you want to their bodies…. wait a minute….. That does sound like an awful good time, but still not my cup o’ tea.

Anyway, No one wants a broken mirror, some people want the funny mirrors that make them look taller or shorter but I want to believe most people want the truth. Day in day out we get fed lies and bullshit and when you meet someone who is just going to tell you the brass tax of the situation odds are you will either freak out or enjoy a wonderful breath of fresh air.

With that I’ll say thanks to my friends who do give me the brass tax and who do share themselves with me. I’m quite sure life would be rather boring without all you kids and your crazy stories.

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Freedom

So I’ve picked up another book on Buddhist Philosophy. I know I’m a sucker for the stuff like soccer moms are for tabloids. Oh and I did just finish the Omnivores Dilemma which is awesome but I’m not going to talk about how awesome right now. This book is called The Backdoor to Enlightenment. No, it’s not about how to get your girlfriend to try anal sex. It is however about how too look at your life in various view points and try to improve your understanding of yourself and those around you. Not only that, but it was written by the Tibetan Monk, Za Rinpoche, I periodically attend guided meditations with.

Needless to say the guy already had my respect which is something I don’t hand out to any religious yahoo. So, this book talks about all kinds of stuff I’m sure I’ll be writing about all over the place. The concept that I was enjoying today was….

I’m free to think and feel whatever I like.

I read this and was just like, why yes I am and how the hell did I ever begin to feel like I couldn’t? Then of course it goes on to explain how you begin to think you can’t. We have opinions, religions, teachers, bosses, parents, friends, family all inundating us with their thoughts and opinions. Sometimes this makes it hard to remember that…. I’m free to think and feel whatever I like.

To some of you, I’m sure it sounds dumb that I even have to be reminded of this, but I feel it just goes back to my blog about how we are so inundated with all these things we are told to do and think. We just simply, lose ourselves. That line between my ideas and my parent’s philosophy is so interwoven that I couldn’t honestly tell you where it exists.

So what do you do about it. We all obviously have all things steadfast steady pieces of ourselves that we believe makeup our steady conscious selves. We will happily take bad ideas and make them our core belief system. Just look at people who sign up for cults, or become any kind of fanatic. Society looks at them like they are nuts. But they are free to think what they like right? Where is that line where people are thinking for themselves and where they are being told what to think?

All I know is the more hard and steadfast things that I say I won’t EVER EVER in a million brazillion years do, I begin limiting how much I can freely think and that is an interesting concept. We begin to weight ourselves down with all of these ideas and philosophies and concepts that may offer us some more stability in our life, they also limit our ability to react to things. How do we balance these things? You got me, but becoming more aware is always the first step.

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Expectation

As you can tell I’ve spent the last 18 hours wrapped up in a long train of tedious thought. With that I began analyzing why I have a feeling of Longing. It appears to me that I have developed an Expectation that I shouldn’t be alone right now. It is only in this moment of “Right Now” that one is capable of experiencing any form of Expectation. If I were to have an Expectation that I should be rich beyond my wildest dreams “Right Now” of course I will not be happy. I’ll be so focused on the difference between my “Right Now” state and my Expectation state that I’m going to have a hard time being happy no matter what.

So how should people deal with this Expectations that don’t seem all that unreasonable, yet they are totally unattainable “Right Now”? I’ve come to this many times in my train of thought and it’s only through managing your Expectations that we will be able to keep the “Right Now” centered. If we let our Expectations run wild we are bound to meet unhappiness.

The difficulty in all this is being able to take a step back from our thoughts and feelings that are controlling our “Right Now” experiences and realize what it is we are doing to ourselves. Perfecting this ability to step back at any and every moment is something I would like to be able to achieve. Imagine being able to step back from every moment where Disappointment, Anger, Frustration, Sadness, Longing and every other emotion we suffer from. If everyone could do this and rebalanced their “Right Now”, there would be a whole lot of psychologists out of work and a whole lot of drug companies working on something other then the next Anti-Depressant.

On a side note:
Happy Birthday Mom.

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